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Silence

I don't hear it, but I know it is talking to me, telling me about my falls and stands, dreams and nightmares, hopes and reality, and about people in my life and those who passed away. I am trying to ignore it; but deep down inside me, I know there is a part of me listing to it. Yet, sadness is an overwhelming burden that I am unwilling to take. It comes and brings all the unspoken words, the tears hidden by a fake smile, the pain in a seemingly happy heart, and the memories of the beloved ones who left us, whether on by or against their wills.
Hell, silence! What do you want me to do? It's over, it's okay for me like that... I don't want your noises to disturb my peace... or what seems to be like peace. I just realized that weeping is not the best way to overcome life. I have to stand, to fall, then STAND, then fall harder and harder, and then to STAND AGAIN! No matter what, I have to continue my journey, whether I like it or not, whether it is happy or not, and whether…

Unfound Soul

One of the most difficult times for the writers is the time when they lose their inspiration. They lose creativity, search for their muses, write many unpublished drafts, and cry in silence.

In such times, writers may try to seek an inspiring spot where they can find their lost skill. Other writers, may evoke their pain to find inspiration. Few writers may quit writing!

Quitting writing is a desperate resolution for the writers who lost their inspiration. They know that they want to avoid pain found in their writings, they seek peace, and they want to stop thinking.

Yet, it is not an easy decision to quit writing, because writers know that a part of their existence is reflected in each word they write, in each moment of pain they share with their readers, in each time they realize the meaning of life through writing, and in each moment they shed a tear!

My dear readers, it is not an easy decision to stop writing again, I stopped before for 6 or 7 years. But, my soul is no longer here, my …

Secret

She was afraid to tell him the secret that she kept hidden for a long time. She was afraid that he may not understand her. She was afraid that she will lose him. Yet, his love was so secure that she never felt afraid when she was with him. He always supported her and cared for her. She believed him and trusted him. Yet, it took her time to reveal her secret.

She tried her best to be courageous enough to reveal her secret. It needed time and courage. The day she revealed her secret, he assured her it is ok. He still loved her and will always be with her.

Next day, he ignored her. She asked about him but he replied he wants to stay alone. She was shocked then she realized she was a fool again. She locked herself in her room, praying to God that she never trust anyone again! It is always trust that brings us pain!




Raindrops

A little girl was walking with her mummy when it suddenly rained. The mother looked around for a shelter while the girl ran happily and tried to hug the raindrops. The mother ordered the little girl to come under the shelter but the little girl disobeyed the order and she kept playing under the rain till her clothes were completely wet. 

Next day, the girl was sick in her bed and her mother was blaming her for disobedience. The little girl said to her mother: “Ok if rain causes cold and we are not supposed to enjoy it; then why did God create it in the first place?” The mother could not answer.

So, the little girl said: “ I’ll tell why, mummy, because God gives us choices, to enjoy raindrops and catch a cold or to find a shelter to avoid raindrops. My choice was to enjoy the rain, unlike you, and now I bear the results of my choice which I don’t regret. The problem mummy is that people forbidden the choices allowed by God. So, you may say that I disobeyed you but I did not disobey God. …

Eternity

"I wish to tell you my secret!" She whispered in the ears of her lover who was sleeping peacefully near her. She surrounded his waist with her arm and gently put her head on his shoulder. He felt her move; he kissed her hair softly while he was sleepy still.

She sighed and closed her eyes. He held her closer and kissed her again. She looked into his eyes and smiled then moved up to kiss his lips. For a moment, they felt it like eternity, they felt peace and tranquility. Everything was in peace, it was heaven! Nothing to worry about except for...She wanted to tell him.

He held her so tight to his body; she felt every inch of it and he felt hers. Then, they kissed intimately. She lost her mind and he lost his. Then, they started their journey to the eternity. Again, it was heaven!

She rested her head again on his should and closed her eyes. Her tears dropped but she rubbed them quickly so that he could not notice or feel them. She wanted to tell him.

Again, he held her tight to fa…

I Miss You

I miss you
When you're away
I want to cry

I miss you 
When we kiss
It's a mess

I miss you
When you hug me
I completely surrender to you

I miss you
When you touch me
I just melt

I miss you
When you're close
I want a pause

I miss you
When you smile
I hold you tight

I miss you
I love you
I surrender to you!



I Feel Alive

When we kiss
I feel happiness
I feel excitement
I feel alive

When you hug me
I seek warmth
I escape to safety
I feel alive

When you touch me I feel fire I feel heaven I feel alive
When you love me I feel your strong heartbeats I feel your warmth I feel alive
When we cuddle I feel serenity I feel it like eternity I feel alive


Falling in Love (Endless Abyss)

With you, I fall in love again and againIt is a joyful pain To feel your warmth To reach the point of extreme
With you, I fall in love again and again I fall to the endless abyss I scream in pain and happiness I embrace heaven in your arms
With you, I fall in love again and again It's just a moment of being To forget the mad universe To become our own universe
With you, I fall in love again and again With you, I find safety With you, I find insanity With you, I find myself



Closer I need you

Closer I need you
The silent night will witness our love
It will be like a prayer for the stars above

Closer I need you
Hold my hands and never let them go
They melt when they touch you

Closer I need you
In my arms, I will hide you
In your arms, I will surrender to you

Closer I need you
Forever I need you
Oh, I just love you!



Godot is Waiting

Godot: O! My God! Where is this girl? They told me that she will come after an hour and I've been waiting for a year!

(walking away and he hears steps so he looks around but found nobody)

Godot: I wanna go back home but I still have to wait for her! I already wasted a year waiting for her .. she should be here at any moment! I won't lose anything If i waited for another hour! She may show up!

(returning back to the same spot where he was waiting for the girl)

(after 3 months)

A boy: Are you Mr. Godot?

Godot: Yes, it's me!

A boy: This is a message for you!

(The boy hands Godot the message and then he ran away)

Godot: Hey! Wait!

(The boy disappeared)

(Godot reading the letter: " Dear Mr. Godot, I know you are waiting for me as I believe I'm the only person who is not waiting for you anymore. I made up my mind so I wont be included in your long waiting list anymore! I'm surprised why people should be wait for you while they know that you will not show up!!?? It's useles…

Beyond Death Lies Memories

The last thing she could feel was the coldness and gradually everything started to fall into darkness. She woke up in a place she couldn't realize. She also had that strange feeling that she never felt like it before. Yet, she resisted it strongly. She heard voices that at first, she couldn't recognize them; later, she recognized that these voices were of her family, relatives, friends and colleagues.
They were talking about her being a unique person who truly loved every creature on earth. She never meant to hurt anybody. Actually, she rushed to help them whenever she could. Laughter and peace were always there wherever she was. They remembered all of her good deeds and the only mistake she did; as she could help everybody except herself.
She heard a sigh and then silence. She smiled as people didn't realize what she was really doing. She helped herself by making them recall her deeds. For her, the only thing that Death can't take away is memories that remain in the hea…

Time

What is time? Is it a memory from the past that lasts forever? Is it the present when we are facing the unknown? Is it the future consequence of the past and the present? I wonder and all that I know about time is that it makes us remember, learn, and die!!!

Collection of Questions

What will happen if Angels and Demons fall in love?
What will happen if they distributed all the money in the universe equally among people?
What will happen if all people walk naked in the streets?
What will happen if people show their reality in front of each other?
What if life is a dream and death is life?
If people have wings, to where they will fly?
What if we found everything around us nothing but a lie?
Is death real?
When will the universe fall apart?
Have we been alive before?
Who really control us?


Love and Taboo

It is just our fate to meet
But not to fall in love
They say it is a taboo
To fall in love with someone 
Who is different from you
Different in color, sex, age, and religion
Same species should fall in love

But they don't know what is love 
Love is challenging the taboo
It doesn't distinguish between me and you
It is just one way
No return back
A battle to win
Love knows no loss

Love is you and me
It is a language between us
No one will feel you but me
No one will feel me but you
It hurts both of us
It melts both of us
Love is both of us

They don't know what is love 
They are blinded by their rage
They are nothing but a falling society
They are falling apart
They are the ones who should fall in love
But, they don't know what is love







The Mirror (Reflections)

Oh! Another day in her boring life was here and she had to go through my daily routine! She looked at the mirror to see how boring she became! But, she found out that she became a completely different person who looks much much older than she used to be. 

It really bothered her, not because she is getting older, which is a natural thing, but because she felt that she lost a part of her existence and it was replaced with another thing. Yes, she lost the innocence and it was replaced by experience! The little child inside her is now becoming aware of true life and that's why she became a mature person.

The little child was dreaming of a perfect world where people love and care for each other, dreams come true, and pain rarely occurs. She used to be happy, having no hard feelings, easily forgiving, and she used to be spontaneous, as she never thought that her actions or words can be misunderstood or twisted.

The poor little girl had several tough lessons when she faced the real life whe…

The Clowns

The clowns are lovely persons who make us laugh. They act stupidly while they are not stupid, they do childish actions while they are not childish, they seem to be always happy while they are not. 

The clowns are amazing persons who have the ability to mask their tears with a fake smile or laughter. They sound happy and hardly people doubt that these clowns can be sad. Their movements, their bright clothes, and amazing masks on their faces hide their reality.

When they are left alone, they take their masks off to stare at the mirror to remember their true faces. They remain silent and dull. They walk away and cry. Yet, the next day people will see the clowns again in their masks and bright clothes and believe that these clowns are happy and cheerful.

I wonder my dear reader, can you see that you are one of these clowns?


Traveling Soul

I am a traveling soul.  I travel inside myself to discover what I don't know about myself. I recently found that I lost my way. So instead of finding myself, I found my nightmares and illusions. Inside the deep dark self of mine, I was lost. I tried to pull myself all together but I failed...I tried again and again I failed! I shouted for help, but there is nobody to help. It's me and my dark self. I screamed and shouted but there is nothing but a painful echo of helpless screams and shouts! I needed you...I looked around but all that I found was myself...it's only then when I realized that I am all alone! Fear creates courage! So, I became powerful and strong enough to help myself! Now, I remember my past and I feel pain because I realized that you are nothing but a nightmare and I have to travel through you to return to the right track!


Grave

It's unpredictable! It's just here, there and everywhere! Like a cruel enemy, it attacks you, sometimes, when you don't expect it. There's no consideration for anything...it just proceeds with its mission which is taking your sole soul! No care for your beloved ones; it is the least care for death! Yet, sometimes, we feel it approaching...but we can't do anything to escape it...we only have to accept the harsh fact. It is Death!
We all know that we'll have to face it one day. But, we don't know what will happen after that. Darkness, silence, and loneliness are what we'll get. You're alive but you can't prove it. You hear the weeping of your beloved ones and you feel their grief. Yet, you can't be there for them anymore! You also hear them about to leave and you're too scared to be left alone in the dark grave! You call them but dead people are not allowed to speak! A heavy silence falls and surrounds you. You start to weep; no tears are…

Darkness and Light

In the darkness of the soul, we try hard to find a source of light. But when time passes and we fail to find light, we get used to the darkness. We keep like that for weeks, or months, or years. It is ok to get used to the darkness, you just adapt to it.  You feel fine when you're alone, you feel fine when you're sad, and you feel strong when you're in the darkness. You just realize it is a monotone in your life. It is ok!

Then, out of nowhere, you're blinded by the sun! A huge amount of light that penetrates each dark corner inside your soul! It changes you completely and finally you feel hope! You're happy again, you're able to love, you're able to live, and you feel your weakness. It is ok! 

Yet, you know that if the light withdraws again from you, you will fall apart! You will fall again in the painful journey of darkness! It will be time to face your demons again! Time of screams and fights that nobody will hear or witness except you! It is a fight betwe…

The Queen & A Sin (The Glory and Defeat of a Queen)

Once, I was the queen of the whole world 
I got control all over the world 
Nothing could stop my ultimate powers 
Nobody dared to face my powers 

Suddenly, I became the queen of nothing 
I lost everything 
And it was too late 
I committed a sin so it's time to face my fate

I became a worrier and tried to defeat my enemies
I defeated them in a merciless way except for one of my enemies
I tried my best but I couldn't do it
I tried, again and again, i failed to do it 

I looked in his eyes asking for mercy
And mercy was so much for someone who committed my sin
So, I was killed by the hands of the one I loved
Or as I call him my "sin" that I loved 


Happiness! Make It Happen!

Recently, an idea popped up! I thought of it carefully and I have found it true, till now. The idea is that happiness is not a feeling that comes as a consequence of events or because something happened by a chance. It is what we make it "happen".
To make happiness occurs in our lives, we need to believe it can "happen" and we can achieve our dreams! It's about believing in ourselves and persistence that creates a positive feeling that keeps us UP! We have to believe everything that happens in our lives can be turned to a positive thing.
For instance, an outstanding experience in my personal life, I didn't get high marks in Economics and Statistics when I was a student in Thanwaya Ammaa (secondary school,) though it was one of the easiest subjects!! Accordingly, it affected my total score and I didn't go to the faculty I wished to join. I spent nights crying for my "failure" and cursing my fate! Now, after almost 10 years, I am grateful for m…

A Painting!

She looked at the mirror, then stared at it and she kept watching it carefully; the mirror reflected a frame of a female in her late 30s. What astonished her is that she was the lady painted in the frame! Is it possible to find out one day that you're nothing but a painting!? The lady studied the painting carefully, it was a painting of a lady who is trying to escape out the painting but she was imprisoned in a frame! The background was dark and there was nothing else except a female prisoner!
The lady was extremely shocked as she thought herself to be a human being who has a life and a freedom to act! But, it was an illusion; she didn't have any! She started to weep, but no tears were shed! She was not designed to cry! She didn't have the right except if the painter would wish her to cry! It was her right to express her feelings yet it was too much for a painting!
Suddenly, the painter came in the room and lit it. He kept staring at the painting, he wanted to her to be m…

Dying Soul of a Pianist

An old philosopher was on his way to a piano concert that he used to attend since last year. He remembered vividly how the young man was a clever pianist. There were harmony and passion driving the pianist, the philosopher smiled as he remembered. It seemed to him that the pianist and the piano were completing each other; the soft tones and the harmonious feelings were shared by all the audience and they all felt the same. It was a music that united all the people. It made him, the philosopher, forgets about the wars, hunger, hatred and terror that surrounds the world. All that he could recall at that time was peace, love, and harmony. 

The concert started, as soon as the young pianist appeared on the stage, the philosopher knew that this concert will not be like the one before. The eyes of the young pianist lacked the passion that existed the last time, the ancient black piano was replaced by white modern one and the pianist's way of was walking also changed! The philosopher felt …

Heart and Mind (A conversation about love)

A conversation between Heart and Mind:

Heart (the voice of heart was trying to sound strong as it knows that it disobeyed the mind): Is it ok to feel pain again? 

Mind (in a confident tone): Yes, when you are stupid to spontaneously! You did again!

Heart (trying to be strong): I just wanted to feel love! It's my job, Mind!

Mind (in arrogant tone): And it is my job to stop you, Heart! Stop you from hurting yourself and causing me a headache! Oh, God! Do you know how much pain killers I need to stop such a headache, you fool!

Heart (in a weak voice): I am sorry. I am sorry but I wanted to be happy, Mind! Just to be happy. Isn't my right to be happy? I see couples everyday and I feel lonely, too lonely! I have a lot of feelings to give but there is nobody, you know!

Mind (in a tolerant tone): I understand! But, she (referring to the owner of the h eart and mind) needs the right person! You are leading her to hell again! You know she will be misreable and we cannot do anything for her!

H…

When U Fall in Love with an Idiot!

On a rainy day, a very lovely and smart girl was standing nearby the bus station where she met a boy who attracted her attention, she didn't know why but she really admired him. Well, as he was dumb (she didn't know so,) she was the one who started chatting with him. They had many things in common so they kept meeting nearby the bus station. The poor girl wanted to go with the dump guy on a date but she was too shy to ask him out. So, she started to bring gifts to him so that he may notice her admiration. But, days passed before she realized that she wasted her money on gifts! Well, he was kind enough to bring her a rose each time she brings him a gift! The girl felt disappointed and decided to drop the whole matter.

Years passed since that and one day the girl was walking nearby the station where she accidentally met the guy who rushed to her. He told her that he was worried about her and that he cared a lot but he never knew how to contact her. The girl said it is ok. The boy…

Puppets of Fate (Love & Fate)

Like a free bird I can fly 
In the wide blue warm sky 
But still that doesn't mean I'm completely free 
I don't know about the Beyond! 
So, I can't guarantee that tom. I'll be there 
Or even guarantee that tom. 'll be there 
So, dont believe liars who say that we are free! 
There is still that thing called our fate 
That's why we will always have limitations and no guarantees
We are the puppets of fate!
Even our love babe, it can't be guaranteed!
The only thing I guarantee
Is this very moment 
While you are in my arms
I'll do my best to make our love survive forever
But as you know, there are no guarantees EVER!


دقات قلبك

لا تتركني بدون خفقان قلبك 

و ما الحياة بدون دقات قلبك!؟ 

فهي التي تخبرني انك تحبني 

و ترشدني في بحور عينيك 

و تتركني حائرة بين ذراعيك

حتي اجد كياني في دفء ذراعيك

و يصبح الحب في كياني كما في كيانك

و تحرقني الاشواق و أنسي نفسي

حتي ترجعني علي الارض دقات قلبك! 

Nostalgia

It seems like dreamy memories though they were true a long time ago but they are fading away like smoke. Memories are there in our hearts, deep-rooted, and they hurt when you remember them in hard times. There is always a nostalgia for the past; free life with fewer responsibilities, with less sadness, with fewer duties, with fewer realizations, and with fewer deaths!
We remember the minimum details of these memories and they shockingly remain vivid as if they occurred yesterday. Maybe a memory of a friend, family member, ice cream, toy, place, etc.  First, they bring a smile on your face. Then, we compare the present and the past to find our tears are shed! Is it because we miss these days? Is it because our present is tough? Is it because we are adults now? Many reasons but no specific answer!
We rarely care about the answer, I think. We just keep these precious memories inside our hearts but we do not realize that today is going to be a memory as well. So, we 've to enjoy as w…

لا ترحل

لا ترحل بعيدا عني 
فأنت جزء مني 
و انت الالهام لفني 
و انت لي مستقبلي و حاضري 

أنا لك طوال ما حييت 
لن اتركك مهما حييت 
فأنا بدونك جسد بلا روح 
دنيا بلا بشر
نهر بلا ماء
سماء بلا الوان
جسد بلا روح

لمسة ايديك تحييني
همساتك تحرقني
نظراتك تغمرني
بسمتك تقتلني

لكم حاولت ان اقول لك
كم من الحب اكنه لك
و لكن لا أجد كلمات توصف حبي لك
فالكلمات عاجزة امام عينيك

و حاولت جاهدة عن سري ان ابوح
و لكن حبيبي ان تدرك ما في الروح
فاتساقط في خضوع
في احضانك كل شيء يزول
و لا يبقي شيئا الا حبك في الروح

Take my Hand & Let's Dance

Take my hand and let's dance Under the moon and on the sand Each other is what we need No matter people blame us for this need
For so long I've been waiting for you And now all that I've is you So, please cure the pain And promise never to let me feel it again
Let me see in your eyes the love I searched for Let me feel in your arms the love I prayed for Let me forget the whole world Now you're my world!
All that I want now is to dance Under the moon and on the sand You're the soft music And the moves that create the dance
Your love is my last chance Without it my soul has no chance To survive the cruel world I told you, you're my world!

The Butterfly and the Candle's Light

Once there was a beautiful butterfly which was attracted to everything that seems to be sweet for her. So, in a starry but a cold night, the butterfly was flying when she saw a window of a very dark room except for the warm light of a very stunning candle.
Thus, she thought that she'll find warmth in such cold night; the pretty butterfly rushed to the candle's light, although the weather started to be windy, but she fought hard to reach the candle's light. The butterfly was over the moon when she could do it. The weather started to get colder and it rained heavily; so the butterfly started to shake although it wasn't her first time to face such a malicious weather. At the same time, it was her first time to see and feel the warmth of a candle's light.
So, the beautiful butterfly rushed to the warmth of the light of the candle innocently to experience for the first time the candle's warmth. The weather got colder so the butterfly became closer to the candle'…

The Fallen Angels

It was a stormy and catastrophic day as God decided to eliminate human beings and Earth. A tender Angel couldn't stand the sufferings of mankind so She decided to help them and disobey God! So, She left Heaven to fall on Earth where She started to save the poor creatures called human beings. She faced the ultimate powers of wind, storm, fire, water, and every outstanding power that threatened the existence of mankind. People didn't see her though they could feel her existence. She bravely faced all the dangers without any hesitation; till mankind was saved.
Hence, god decided to punish that Angel by sending an army of Angels to destroy the kind Angel and deprive her of her powers. The poor thing couldn't fight alone 100000 Angels but She did her best and she barely survived. Yet, the Angels managed to deprive the Angel of her powers; hence, she lived among human beings as a human. She suffered a lot because of losing her powers.
Days passed while the Angel was trying to a…