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Darkness and Light

In the darkness of the soul, we try hard to find a source of light. But when time passes and we fail to find light, we get used to the darkness. We keep like that for weeks, or months, or years. It is ok to get used to the darkness, you just adapt to it.  You feel fine when you're alone, you feel fine when you're sad, and you feel strong when you're in the darkness. You just realize it is a monotone in your life. It is ok!

Then, out of nowhere, you're blinded by the sun! A huge amount of light that penetrates each dark corner inside your soul! It changes you completely and finally you feel hope! You're happy again, you're able to love, you're able to live, and you feel your weakness. It is ok! 

Yet, you know that if the light withdraws again from you, you will fall apart! You will fall again in the painful journey of darkness! It will be time to face your demons again! Time of screams and fights that nobody will hear or witness except you! It is a fight between darkness vs light, hope vs surrender, peace vs hope, love vs hatred, and you vs everything!

The battle goes on till one side wins! Darkness again is the conqueror because we pick to hide out of fear of being hurt again! Darkness is the protector! Darkness is peace! Darkness is the escape!

Ironically, there is always something attractive in the light. Light is a desire that appeals to all of us! Though we know that when we allow light, we will again fall apart!

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